Saturday, April 25, 2009

10:59 PM (and 57 seconds)

I see him tomorrow and I'm going to talk to him. I'm done with being next to invisible to him. I'm going to talk to him and he's going to talk back. It's gonna start with a "hey" and end in a better friendship. Sure, we're "friends" now, but next time he's going to want to talk to me. He's going to come up to me next time because last time wasn't enough. I already have butterflies now; however, I'm just going to have to swallow my insecurities and do it.

I love watching movies. I hate watching them in TV though, the commericials last longer than the parts of the movie inbetween, but you get so sucked into the movie, you can't stop watching. It's like a trap, and I fall into it every time.

Then there's those commericals with the abused animals. I think its the ASPCA commercials. They show the most terrible and sad pictures of animals and play extremely sad music. Then they ask for your money. Then they say:"This is your chance to say, I won't sit by while an animal suffers." How could you not after that? You feel like a jerk after that. Gahh, I hate those commercials.

I think I just hate commercials in general. Like the ones that claim if you text the name of your lover, some psychic will say if you're meant to be. They play three different ones in a row. Who actually buys into that crap? I mean, really? I want to know the number of people that actually text in.

I think all commercials should be funny. Then maybe I'd actual buy what they were selling because they took the time to entertain me. (and if a law passes stating that all commercials must be funny, I want some of the dough)

During romantic movies I feel so happy. I love them. I get so involved in them. But after they're over, I get depressed. Ugh.

As a little kid, I though it would so cool to have a sleepover in the mall and play hide and seek. I still feel that way. If I ever win the lottery, I'm going to rent the mall for a night. Or maybe just for a day so the stores will still be open. Then I'll buy a Lamborghini. (haha that was weird. I remember thinking that I should write "then I'll buy a Lamborghini" but I forgot I typed it, so after my eyes being glued to the television, I looked back and it was there and I was like what the heck? Oh man....)

Gahh, I'm gonna cry. I watching one of those romance movies, and it's so amazing, but I'm so jealous, and now theres the animal commercial with sad music. Emotions! UGH



Friday, April 24, 2009

Hopelessly In Love

Hey all:

(sorry to start off depressing, but...)

Have you ever liked somebody so much that when you think about them someday getting married to not you, it makes you sad?

Have you ever liked somebody so much that you're afraid to talk to them because you never want to get rejected?

Have you ever liked somebody so much that when they look at you all thought seems to come to an end and all you can see are their perfect eyes staring into yours and you feel like your entire body is pulsing to the beat of his breathing?

I like this one guy. A lot. He's one of the only guys I've liked that still doesn't know I like him (*knocks on wood*). I just about hyper-ventilate when I know I'm about to see him and then once he's there everything is perfect. Time seems to stop and all I can see is....well....him. Like I said above, I'm so scared of saying the wrong thing to him or that he doesn't like me back. Every guy that's found out I liked them hasn't liked me back. (Read my post on Valentine's Day/who I spent it with....that one was the worst). I'm so scared of being rejected it's insane. I'm practically in love with the guy and I don't want to do anything to ruin it with him. I probably sound like a complete loser, but, trust me, I'm not. He makes me want to be a better person. And I wish that could just tell him, but I pretty much get tears in my eyes now thinking about what if he doesn't like me. Anyways, if you guys have any great ideas on this whole sitch. Go ahead and share.

If anyone has any information on MCR (like concerts/new albums) let me know

I think writing songs and lyrics is actually pretty fun. I'd never let anyone read them though.

I'm a pretty good artist, I can draw faces pretty well. I just have trouble drawing my own, I'm my biggest critic.

I want to learn guitar, then maybe I can write lyrics AND compose

Then I'll learn how to sing. SO I can write lyrics, compose, and actually play/sing it.

I think it'd be cool to be a psychologist, you'd leave work feeling better about your problems.

A lot of the population is over-weight. I blame McDonald's. (Which explains why I'm skinny)

To get a car, I'd have to get a job. Then when people ask why I have a car I could say "To get to work" and when people ask why I work I could say "To pay for my car."

The US is 10% of the world's population, yet we use 75% of it's resources. Still, people ask why other countries want to bomb us.

(Un-realted to above) Did you know 49.3% of all statistics are made up on the spot?

4/3 people have trouble with fractions.

Blogging is really fun. I think everyone should have a blog, just so I'd have something to laugh at late at night.



Thursday, April 23, 2009


Song of the day:

"Broken Man" Boys Like Girls

Howdy folks!

Today started off quite dreary and cloudy, but while confined inside the concrete walls of school the day brightened and the sun came out of hiding. That's kind of how my day went. Sad to happy/content.

I've actually been feeling pretty lucky this week. I've won money, talked to ____, stalked TG, layed (Lied? Lain?) in the sun, watched Ellen, walked my dog, and hung out with friends.

I'm really excited for the warped tour this year, but The Academy Is... isn't going. WHAT THE HECK!? WHY NOT?! Seriously? However, FTSK will be there, We the Kings will, and 3OH!3, so I think I'll survive. But I'd really like to give TAI a piece of my mind right now! Who cares if you're on tour? Warped Tour is way more important!

Warped Tour Lineup:
Check out that site, it has bands, and band reviews. It's awesome and Secret Stalker recommended.

Another band I want to talk to is My Chemical Romance. PUT ANOTHER RECORD OUT FOR CRYING OUT LOUD! Thanks :]

Colds in weather that looks like summer shouldn't exist. It ruins sunny days.

I need to get tan. I'm so white, it's pathetic. I don't believe in tanning beds though. Really? If you do go to them, just stop. You're going to get cancer. You won't notice it now, but by the time your 40 you're skin will look like crap and you'll be battling skin cancer. It really isn't worth it going to tanning beds. (laying in the sun with a little sunscreen is okay though)

Anyways....I ran out of things to say, and I don't want to



Saturday, April 18, 2009

The Scary Movie Elephant Has Been Caged

Lyrics O' The Day:

Ain't No Rest For The Wicked -- Cage The Elephant

I was walking down the street when out the corner of my eye, I saw a pretty little thing approaching me.

She said I never seen a man, who looks so all alone, could you use a little company?

If you pay the right price, your evening will be nice, or you can go and send me on my way, I said your such a sweet young thing, why'd you do this to yourself?

She looked at me and this is what she said.

There ain't no rest for the wicked, money don't grow on trees, I got bills to pay, I got mouths to feed, there ain't nothing in this world for free.I know I can't slow down, I can't hold back though you know I wish I could, oh no there ain't no rest for the wicked, until we close our eyes for good.

Not even 15 minutes later, after walking down the street, when I saw the shadow of a man creep out of sight,

then he swept up from behind, put a gun up to my head, he made it clear he wasn't looking for a fight,

he said give me all you've got, I want your money not your life, if you try to make a move I wont think twice,

I told him you can have my cash, but first you know I've got to ask, what made you want to live this kind of life?

He said there aint no rest for the wicked, money don't grow on trees, I got bills to pay I got mouths to feed aint nothing in this world for free.I know I can't slow down, I can't hold back though you know I wish I could oh no there ain't no rest for the wicked, until we close our eyes for good.

Now a couple hours past, and I was sitting in my house, the day was winding down and coming to an end,

so I turned on the TV, and flipped it over to the news, and what I saw I almost couldn't comprehend,

I saw a preacher man in cuffs taking money from the church, he stuffed his bank account with righteous dollar bills but even still I can't say much cause I know were all the same,

oh yes we all seek out to satisfy those thrills.

You know there ain't no rest for the wicked, money don't grow on trees, we got bills to pay we got mouths to feed ain't nothing in this world for free.We can't slow down, we can't hold back though you know we wish we could. you no there aint no rest for the wicked, until we close our eyes for good.

Well, once again it's time for another episode of Secrets of a Stalker!

I hate scary movies. Those feelings of fright and anxiety as you watching through half-closed eyes as the characters scream and run about dying and being killed off. I hate those feelings. I suppose I'd like those better though if I had a guy to cuddle into and to hold me tight and make me feel safe....

I really want a convertible. However, it rains a lot here. So, I'd never get to use it, but they sure are cool!

Funny Facebook Status: "(Insert Name Here) hated it when old aunts used to come up to her at weddings, poke her in the ribs and cackle, "You're next." They stopped after I started doing the same thing to them at funerals."
Haha, pretty good, huh?

The mall is a great place. You can eat, buy things, hang out with friends, scope out cute boys, and get exercise all in one place. I love the mall.

Texting, facebook, myspace, twitter...etc. are all great ways to keep up with people. But I fear that our generation isn't going to be as personal. We're going to lose valuble comminication skills an get stuck texting instead of talking. Don't get me wrong, I love all of those things, I just think people should use them in moderation.

Nitro Circus is a prettty good show. However, the guys (and gal) on there are so stupid! That's what makes it a great show.

Music is basically my life. I love it. I listen to it all the time and memorize lyrics like no other. I think everybody should learn to play an instrument, it gives you a better understanding of how amazing musicians are. How hard it is to compose, write lyrics, sing well, play well, and actually make it big.

I think it's funny how women can't understand men, and how men can't understand women, and yet we love each other for those things.

I love accents. I wish I had one. I mean, yeah I have one, but it's American. I guess I'd feel the same way though if I were Aussie.

Cat's are very independant animals. They're relatively easy to take care of. That's why those old single ladies have so many. They're indepent, easy to take care of, and keep you company, kind of like men.

Okay, those are my insights for today! <3


Friday, April 17, 2009


Heeeeello everybody! So, I have a sort of you see I have some people I'm stalking. And the names gave them are pretty lame.

so I need YOU, my faithful readers, to come up with some names for them.
Comment on this with your nicknames and I'll choose the best ones.

There's no prizes but you'll be mentioned in the post with the winning names!

SO get cracking on some names ya'll!

love yas,


Tuesday, April 14, 2009

I Got You're Picture, I'm Coming With You, Dear Maria Count Me In

What's up all?

Things are pretty SPLENDID here! For multiple reasons:

1. I've stalked This Guy (TG) and found his locker. Now I can see him EVERYDAY!

2. I see ____ tomorrow! (actually today....)

3. It's not raining

4. I just had some chocolate milk

5. I'm blogging!

Well, I guess it's time for me to write some amazing stuff....SO HERE IT GOES!!!!

All Time Low is an amazing band. If you don't believe me, listen to them, they will blow your mind. The lyrics are great. The sound is great. The voices are great. And Jack is slightly really hot...but I was good. I didn't look at the band until I bought their CD. Their looks in no way influenced my decision to buy the CD, thank you very much. But certain other people may have influenced me. Normally I wouldn't give in to peer pressure, but for ATL, anytime.

My Chemical Romance needs to put another record out. Like seriously. They've teased us long enough with Desolation they need some more tunes! I also think they need more songs like on their first album. I dunno why, but I love Bullets. Like "Early Sunsets Over Monroeville," I love that song. Especially in the end, where Gerard's like half-screaming/yelling, gahh! I love it!

So, I guess I lied about posting everyday. Sorry.

Anyways, dinner beckons.....and I'm hungry



Sunday, April 12, 2009

It's Been Awhile

Oh, how it's been so long.
We're so sorry we've been gone.
We were busy writing songs!

Oh, how it's been so long.
We're so sorry we've been gone.
We were busy writing songs for...

You don't have to worry 'cause we're still the same band.
You don't have to worry, you don't have to worry, you don't.
You don't have to worry, you don't have to worry, you don't.

Oh, how it's been so long.
We're so sorry we've been gone.
We were busy writing songs

Maybe I'm not writing songs for you, but I'm definitely writing. And I'm back, baby! My things have fallen back into my possesion and you can expect me to blog at least once a day.

A special shout out to All Time Low for continuing to be AMAZING! (and really cute).

And another shout out for those of you that helped me out with the "Secrets of a Talker" problem (you know who you are). I'm just going to have to wait until it happens to test it out.

Gahh, I missed blogging. My goal this month is to get more followers (I have like 3) and to get more people reading this daily. Because not enough of you do. (I have google analytics, I can tell)

Stalkee Updates:

TG contintues to be attractive. (however, according to his myspace, he has a girlfriend, but on that same page it says he's single....???)

____ continues to be amazing. He's my favorite. :)

OG, well, is cute, not neccessarily a high priority.

LT continues to stare at me. I don't know why, but he does, and it's only in that one class. I wish I could record it for you.

Lama is most likely in love with one of my friends. :P

Rama was originally this one guy, but now he's changed into another. But I'm keeping the name Rama, because I don't like the other guy any more, but this new guy: Heck Yes.

I'll write more tonight everyone, but the warm water of a shower is calling for me....

Peace and Happy Easter,